Why is it so hard for me to decide things? I wish someone could just decide for me. Yesterday I went up to my old workplace at the hospital with some flyers looking for children to babysit. I knew some of my old coworkers well and knew some of them may need child care. I told them I never should have left to try another job and they said I could come back. I would just like to fill in around my kids things and church for now and I thought they had done away with the "fill in" position. They told me to ask the boss's boss. Sooo as I was leaving I ran into her in the hallway and she said hello and how they missed me. She said she would gladly let me return because she knew I would fulfill the requirements of the "fill in", which is filling in their gaps where they are short staffed. She also wants me to watch her newborn. She sent me to HR right away and they told me I haven't been gone long so they would also give me back my seniority. Wow! That's huge after 8 years of being there. So now I am so confused. I had made up my mind to be home but not wanting 100 kids to watch. I thought Heavenly Father wanted mommies at home. So why was this so easy yesterday? What in the world should I do?